25 January 2013

Resolutions

Here goes my list of LATE, boring and uninspired New Year's resolutions that I do not intend to fulfill but just want to write down for the sake of having that sense of direction, of planning on doing something, albeit imagined. Because who knows, I might re-read this post one day and actually DO it.

1. Study - Our company is offering tuition reimbursement on post-grad studies, so why not grab the chance, huh? But the catch, of course, is I'd have to get good grades to get the full reimbursement, and obviously, I can't take up courses like Masters in Robotics or Interior Design or whatever. So it's the usual fare, not really uber ultra hyped about it, but hey it's free, and some extra knowledge is always a good thing.

Why I should do it: School is a good place to meet people. So if not for the knowledge, then do it for the boyfriend! Ha ha.

Why I should not do it: Because I'd kill myself doing it. I'm averaging only 5-6 hours of sleep everyday, so with school, that would be suicide.

2. Climb Mt. Pulag - Now this, I INTEND to do. If only my officemates are as excited about this climb as I am. I've already bought a really good fleece jacket for a really cheap price (read: ukay-ukay), and I know where to get a Deuter ACT Lite 35+10 SL and a Coleman sleeping bag FOR FREE. I've done my research, all that's left is to contact the DENR superintendent in Benguet and we're almost good to go. So people, where's the enthusiasm? I can't climb the mountain alone!

Why I should do it: Because I am a self-proclaimed taga-bukid.

Why I should not do it: Why not?

 3. Publish my poetry somewhere - Lofty dreams! Of course, the only way to do this is to, first of all, write, and to second of all, write. But of course! So why am I doing so little of this lately? This makes me sad.

Why I should do it: Because life is music and poetry, but is invisible.

Why I should not do it: Because I'm a loser who has lost her muse (why do they call it "muse" anyways?)

4. Save - Shame on me for analyzing other people's money, and yet can't even manage my personal finances well. I was supposed to write down "invest for the future!" but thought that "save" was a more truthful, convenient and practical way to go.

Why I should do it: I'm broke.

Why I should not do it: Because poverty can be romanticized.

5. Dye my hair red - What's with all the wannabe brunettes? Red is the new brown.

Why I should do it: Red is pretty, and because, unfortunately, blue is not allowed as per the HR dress code policy manual (code na, policy pa, manual pa!).

Why I should not do it: Maka-dry ug buhok. Girly dilemmas.


There's supposed to be more, but I'll stick to five for now. The shorter, the better. The more important resolutions are, of course and as always, unwritten.


    

24 January 2013

Guhmp Theory No. 1

What. Did you expect me to cry out for you? You: the black and blue
Thing in my peripheral vision that is only beginning to acquiesce after an almost
Dying, draw your mirror away, it's only going to lead us to more pain.
Please understand that its not you its me and its you and me against the world
And how, how, how can we ever explain ourselves to everyone when everyone
Is a huge blank face staring back at us, when they stretch out their hands towards us,
Heads bent in shame, shoulders in, knees bent, feet a-p-a-r-t, afar, a part of
the mass of ubiquitous bodies that move in unison, children of chaos and gravity,
Spare me this life from this monstrosity. Bismillah! Let me go! Mamma Mia let me

well,
go.