30 October 2012

Tatay Manuel

I don't know how to react to this. Just this evening, as my officemate Dan and I were walking along Ayala Avenue to catch a bus ride home, we saw this old man who was just standing in the middle of the sidewalk, clutching his knees with his head bowed down. I thought nothing of it and we just passed him by. But Dan kept looking back at him and when I turned to look as well, I saw that the old man has not moved at all. He seemed to be in pain so we retraced our steps and ask him if he was okay. The old man told us that his leg was hurting him. He pulled up his left pant leg, and we saw a bandage wound around his left ankle. A result of diabetes, he said. When I asked him why he was walking alone at that time of the night, he said that he came to see his former work mates (he once worked as a construction worker) who were currently in Makati Avenue to ask them if they could lend him two thousand pesos. The money was supposed to be a down payment to a funeral parlor, so he could redeem the body of his 12-year old son and give him a proper burial. His son died from food poisoning after having eaten food he picked up randomly from the trash.

His work mates were not able to lend him money and so he decided to just go back home to Cavite. Since he did not have any fare money with him, he was planning to walk all the way to Walter Mart (which was two rides away from Ayala) where the FX shuttles are, and somehow beg one of the drivers there to let him ride for free. How did you get here in Makati in the first place? I asked him. Turned out he was able to hitch a ride on a truck that was transporting vegetables from Cavite to Guadalupe. From Guadalupe, he walked all the way to Makati Ave. 

He really was a pitiful sight, an old man in his 60's or 70's walking alone in the streets of Makati at that late hour. And since leaving him there seemed like a criminal thing to do, we offered to accompany him to Walter Mart and pay for his fare. During the bus ride, we learned that his name was Manual Ibanez Sr. and that he was a widower with two children aged 14 and 10, apart from his 12-year old son who just died. They were children from his second marriage, which accounted for their young age. His son was already 8 days at the funeral home and he was told that he should pay the bill and get the body already, else it will start to rot and smell. Being poor and unemployed, he went to seek the help of various local government officials but was turned down. He even went to the ABS-CBN and GMA Kapuso Foundations, but learned that help would be granted only after his story was aired in TV and donations came in. By the time the funds would be available, his son's body would already have started to rapidly decompose. His last resort was to seek the help of his former work mates which, likewise, did not turn out to be successful. On top of this dilemma, Tatay Manuel was diagnosed with Stage 4 liver cancer and all he wanted was to take his children with him to his hometown in Tacloban, Leyte, so he could die there in peace, and have his relatives take care of his children. He seemed like an educated man because he was able to utter phrases in fluent English while he was narrating his life story. He never asked us for money or pleaded that we help him out with anything.

Dan took his cellphone number and details of where he lived and the name of the funeral parlor where his son was laid. We gave him a little extra cash so he can pay for the FX ride to Cavite and maybe buy some food for himself and his kids when he gets home. I don't know, call me naive but there's just something about old people that moves me. Surely old men won't resort to lying. They're wise souls, aren't they? His story seemed genuine to me.

After we got off at the Pasong Tamo-Buendia crossing, we flagged down a jeepney going to Walter Mart for Tatay Manuel and bid goodbye to him. Dan and I can only look at each other and shake our heads in dismay at that sad encounter.

But then something came up. After arriving home, Dan texted me that Tatay Manuel's story was on the internet. He forwarded me a link to a Facebook page and I saw this:

  • GoodDay. Gusto ko lang po humingi ng help. Last week po kasi i saw an old man about 60-70y/o, Name MANUEL G. IBANEZ, SR. passing Makati Ave. & i notice na pahinto-hinto po siya tpos naka yuko while holding his stomach, ayaw nman po tumanggap ng help. Tapos kinausap ko po, he told me na hihingi daw siya ng help sa mga kasamahan niya sa Construction financially, matagal daw kasi process sa Malacanang. Kasi he's dying na po Liver Cancer Stage 4. Ayw niya daw po umasa sa help kahit kaninong matataas kasi wala din naman daw. Ang gusto niya lng po eh mai-uwi ung 8y/o son and wife niya sa Province, nakalimutan ko po Province pero by Barko po ung biyahe. Gusto niya daw po PAMASAHE lng. gusto niya po daw "mamatay" sa province nila. Bibigay ko po present address niya if nag repond po kayo sakin sa Cavite lng po siya. Help naman po please.
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Note that this Facebook post was made last October 2011. I googled some more and even found one dating back to 2010.


  • May nakasalubong akong cancer patient kagabi. And my heart has been heavy eversince. Kagigising ko lang. Ambigat sa loob kasi pamasahe lang nya yung naitulong ko kagabi. Kinuha ko yung number, address, at full name nya. Sabi ko kung kaya ko hihingi ako ng tulong. Isa yung DF sa mga naisip ko. Mga ka-DF, eto yung personal info nya. :(

    Full name: Manuel G. Ibanez Sr.
    Address: Block 2, Lot 20, Barangay Lumbreras, Alvarez, Cavite
    Number: 0939-228-0433

    Lumapit na daw sha sa kung kani-kaninong politicians, sa ABS-CBN, sa GMA. Ang tanging naitulong sa kanya ng gobyerno ay parang certificate na free na yung transportation nya. Eh hindi rin nman cncredit ng mga bus. So please, anyone who could, pakitulungan naman. :(

    P.S.
    Illike ko 'tong stat ko para may e-mail notifications ako sa mga magccomment. Please let's do help. Tapos kung may mga ippost kayo regarding this, kindly tag me. Thank you. :(
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    • 2 people like this.
    • Madlyn Jazz Merjudio same story. nakasalubong namin xa n mabagal n ng lalakad pahinto hinto while holding his stomach. nakilala ko rin tong manuel Ibanez na to, sbi nya may cancer xa sa liver at stage 4 na, may taning n buhay nya at 8days nlng bngay sa kanya, nakasalubong ko xa last saturday, masama rin loob ko kasi pamasahe pauwing cavite lng ang naibagay ko at konting pocket money at food, sbi ko i'll send him money para makauwi xa sa leyte with his son and daughter kasi wala akong dalang madaming pera that time... super sad ng story nakwento ko sa frend ko to and he told me n nakilala nya rin to 3 months ago, kaya nagduda ako at naisip kong i google ang namenya, nalaman ko madami n xa nabiktima

Like what I said earlier in this post, I don't know how to react to this. Should I be enraged because I was scammed and "victimized" by this old man? I cannot bring myself to say "Beware This Man" because in the first place, he never asked us for help, and if we gave him some money, we did it out of our own free will. He never should have made up those stories, yes, he was at fault with that, but can we really blame him for what he did? What with the neglect our government is showing to the poor in this country? Tatay Manuel probably deserved that money more than I did. I would have probably just spent it on greasy, unhealthy food or on a fancy item at the mall that I don't need. I do not regret being scammed.


27 October 2012

The 2nd Law: Isolated System

Another track from Muse's newest album, The 2nd Law. The album title is inspired by the Second Law of Thermodynamics, which states that if no energy enters or exits the system during an exchange, the potential energy of state will always be less than that of its original state. 

"In an isolated system entropy can only increase"

My new addiction. :)





26 October 2012

Madness

Come to me
Just in a dream
Come on and rescue me
Yes I know, I can be wrong
Maybe I'm too headstrong
Our love is madness


21 October 2012

Three Ways To Die


1

New Year’s Eve.  The food is laid out on the table, everyone is in festive mode. Beth is sitting out on the balcony, watching her brothers set up giant sparklers on the sidewalk. She strokes her swelling belly. Being pregnant at sixteen is not easy, but she’s determined to keep her child. She thinks of New Year’s resolutions to write in her journal later on—go to college, make up for lost time with my parents, be a good mom—while  several meters away, a stray bullet fired from a drunk policeman’s gun is hurtling its way to her head.

2

“This is a hold-up,” the man hissed in Tamara’s ear while he presses a gun to her neck. “Give me your wallet and your cellphone.” Tamara wildly looks around for help. There is nobody else in sight.

“Please don’t kill me,” Tamara pleads. With shaking hands, she reaches inside her bag and hands over her valuables. The man releases his grip on her and manages a smirk. “By the way, this is a toy gun,” he mocks before running away. In her rage, Tamara runs across the street to chase him. A speeding truck hits her before she can scream.

3

The plot in the cemetery is ready. It’s a lovely patch with wildflowers and Jun has already made an advance payment to the caretaker who will be doing the grave maintenance. He has already bought the pine-wood coffin, made reservations at the funeral parlour, estimated the number of guests who will be coming. What he needs to do now is complete the list of songs to be played at the wake. Jun has lung cancer. His doctors have given him only three more months to live. 

He ponders for a while then downloads Led Zeppelin’s Stairway to Heaven from iTunes.


14 October 2012

If I Could Buy More Time To Be A Poet

If I could buy more time to be a poet, I would
Take you somewhere we can be alone
In an abandoned castle perhaps where our stories once lived.
I'll read my verses and you will listen
And not understand a thing but we'll hear the walls shake
And the ground will feel like water under our feet.
You will lean over for a kiss when it is over
And I will give up my lips like giving up my pride
Knowing that words are currents that must flow through skin 
Before they can enter the mind.
And one day you will realize how the words
That did not make any sense to you
Were actually the prayers that you have left
Unuttered, folded away in a secret place
That even I cannot reach.


13 October 2012

Paul Auster's Oracle Night

This is not a book review. If it is, I would have to dissect, analyze and piece together the three stories within this novel which is a torturous thing for me to do at this moment. Oracle night is a story within a story within a story. It is the story of Lemuel Flagg, a British Lieutenant of World War I, of Nick Bowen, an editor at a New York publishing house who made The Great Escape of his life, and of Sidney Orr, the writer who created Nick Bowen from the pages of a mysterious Portuguese notebook and whose life takes on a bewildering turn after doing so.

I loved the Nick Bowen episode. Mostly because of his larger-than-life decisions, and also because his story didn't have an ending and nobody knows what happened to him. He might as well have died, but nobody knows for sure, not even Sidney, who created him. His story is a prime example of starting over a new chapter of one's life, but not in a warm, fuzzy, feel-good way. After having had a near brush with death, Bowen decides that a new life has been given to him and immediately leaves for a new city without going home to pack his things or even telling his wife about it. He checks in at a hotel, phones a woman he has met once and declares his love for her, and goes out to shop for clothes only to find out that his ATM  and credit cards have been cancelled. With only a small amount of cash in his pockets, he skips out on the hotel bill and goes looking for the only person he knows in Kansas City--Ed Victory, the taxi driver who drove him to the hotel.

His bad luck doesn't there. Ed Victory hires him as a telephone book sorter in the dubiously named Bureau of Historical Preservation, and through a bizarre twist of events, Bowen ends up being locked up alone in full darkness in an underground bomb shelter. Sidney Orr has no idea how to get him out of that desperate situation, and so he leaves the story unfinished. Pretty frustrating, if you ask me.

Nick Bowen and Sidney Orr are interchangeable characters. They both make a living in the writing/publishing industry, they almost have identical wives, identical dilemmas. As I was reading through the novel, I get the weird feeling that their stories are beginning to merge. Sidney Orr's friend pops up in the Nick Bowen story and I have to go back several pages to make sure that he really is Orr's friend, and not a new character in the Bowen story.

Oracle Night is not the story of Nick Bowen, though. It is mostly Sidney Orr's story and of how the written can mysteriously foretell the events in the life of the writer. Although, technically, Oracle Night is the story of Lemuel Flagg. I know I'm not making any sense here, so might be better if you just find out for yourself. :)



10 October 2012

Garden Apathy

It's a crisp Monday morning and we see
Desmond tending to his garden.
And what a beautiful garden it is--
Rows and rows of fairy cabbages,
Ballerina lettuce that dance
In glittering tutus all day, sweet uni-corns.
There are the weeds, of course,
Weeds that get angry when Desmond pulls
Them out by the hair.
But they're blind and cannot see the fate
That await them.
Desmond chucks them into the fire.

Hey! The pumpkins shouted from not far away.
Over here, young master! Our throats are parched
And we need our sparkling cider.
Hey! The sexy orchids cooed from their vines.
We're bored, come and tell us a story.
Hey! The pretty sunflowers called out.
We need our sun, get us away from this shade.
Hey! The sergeant tomatoes growled.
You think you the boss here? We the boss here!
Hey! The sweet peas.
Hey! The potatoes.
Hey! The carrots.
Hey! The purple yams.

There's so much work that needs to be done.
Desmond does not complain.

Down by the south fence, a lone apple tree stands.
Desmond goes over and picks up the rotten apples
Fallen to the ground.
They're bruised all over and they look at him
Without a word.
And because they're useless and good as dead,
Desmond decides to love them the most.

He throws them to the fire together with the weeds.


03 October 2012

Response


You say I am lazy but the truth is I am
Afraid of the flare of the lamp that gropes
For my eyes, terrified of the endless
Catastrophic pillows that smother my dreams
While wide awake at two A.M
Staring at curious shadows
That clamor to be vulgarized
Unsure of who or when or where
And why.

The world is governed by chance
Is not a cute adlib.
It is a war cry.